i think manila bay has one of the best sunsets in the world..
and i wish it has more “view” other than ships and cargo cranes..
like, you know..
seagulls?
hehehe
but hehehe aside..
if you’re living in manila and and while reading the first lines you were like “weh?”
you should see it at around 5 to 6pm..
it has all these amazing colors that could make a n00b photographer’s shot look professional..
but the image above is not mine nor i don’t think it’s from a n00b..
hehe..
[click teh pichur to view its original source..]
i’d definitely make tambay there one of these days..
i grew up in manila yet i don’t have any picture of rizal park..
ridiculous hindi ba?
so in manila..
there’s no need to go out of town just to see nice places..
it’s almost everywhere..

i think i developed this certain type phobia..
i can’t stare at an internet photo for a long time because i’m afraid it’s a gif photo..
and after 20 seconds something scary will suddenly appear..

all thanks to a friend’s kid sister..
she posted “if you’re happy then click this..”
i clicked the motherf*ther link and poof!
it became koko krunch!
tsk!

anyway how’s earth!
it’s been more than a year since i last blogged..
and there are like more than 10 old drafts in my dashboard right now..
but i hope this will get published..
oh wait..
let’s do that now!

happy december everyone!

since tumblr came in the way..
i had less and less time to post on wordpress..
but we make time..
korz we will..
this is like teh homie!

anyway..
Z! O! M! G!
kasalukuyan kong tinititigan ang aking transcript of records..
at impairness..
ang sarap nyang lamukusin.. itapon.. at sunugin sa floor..
hehe
first 3 lines..
ang grade..
2.75
3.00
3.00
pagbaba mo pa ng onte..
what the fact!
pati PE ko 2.75!

napakaloser ko talaga..

pero meron naman akong uno..
kaso isa lang..
field trips at seminars pa..
eh lahat naman uno dun..

but i’m thankful..
at least nairaos ang engineering ng hindi bumagsak..
pero sabi nga ni bits..
hindi sa grade masusukat ang galing ng isang tao..
eh saan?

so what up with the end of 2009?
ano nga ba nangyari..
well a lot of people died this 2009..

on january..
there was the recession..
lay-off drama..
i had braces last january too..
frankenmeh~
on february i went to shangri-la cebu..
went there 4am..
then left at 10pm..
on the same day..
crazy banana!
i also had my psp!

saw boyce avenue at sm the block whom i gladly ignored..
hahaha
been very active with facebook and pet society..
also bought some onion plushies..
on march..
nothing much happened..
oh..
that cuervo incident..
[censored]
on april..
i went to puerto galera..
first time..
oye!
i remember going home on sunday afternoon..
tapos same day..
me and my family headed straight to ilocos..
from south to north..
move it!
we also went to baguio..
tapos dumaan ng tarlac for some fishy fun at isdaan..
then on may..
i suffered the mid-life/quarter-life crisis..
haha
on june..
i watched 1 litre of tears..
stupid tv series..
walang ibang ginawa kundi paiyakin ako..
*sings* da~ke~ kona~yuki~ neh~
june was also the time for A[H1N1] drama..
july..
wala ako ni isang post nung july..
bakit?
anyway..
on august..
cory aquino died..
and papa died..
one of the darkest days of my life..

i still miss papa..
but then as i always say and always think..
it’s a comfort knowing he is at peace..
and next na gising nya..
paradise na..
lucky man!
this was also the time i speculated every month..
may sikat na mamamatay..
and every month..
meron ngang sikat na namamatay..
coincidence..
i think not..

september..
nothing much happened..
nagleave ako ng more than 3 weeks sa trabaho..
and spent time wit my family..
happy times..
oh..
i also got promoted..

october came and so does ondoy and pepeng..
mejo malapit na sana kami abutin ng baha..
pero hindi kami inabot..
\m/
nagpanic buying din ako ng month na to..
haha
on november..
was manny pacquiao’s victory over miguel cotto..
i also created a new blog in tumblr..
visit it!
kung mapapansin nyo..
i have a post for everyday..
and this december..
hmmm..
we went to batangas..
and..
what else..
and what not..
wala na masyado..

so much for a year huh..
at bilang last post for the year..
we will now have..
the second annual banana awards..
for the banana award for the software application would be..
dun dun dun dun~
TweetDeck!

hahaha
it saved me from the darkest i mean sleepiest moment of my office life!
bilang blocked parin kasi ang twitter samin..

and for the man of the year..
we give him to the only man of my life..

love you ‘Pa!
miss you soooooooooooooo much!

bye 2009..
i feel 2010 is gonna be way way better!
now keep your headz up!

few seconds later..

believe me..
i tweet too much!

and while lurking at tumblr..
i saw these two berry nice photos..

it has this old america look..
but it’s teh vintage manila y’all..

ngaun ang sikip sikip na nya!
ang dumi dumi..
at puro sidewalk vendorz!
we want teh old manila back!

last saturday morning while cleaning teh car..
[puro teh ah!]
i can’t help but hear neighbor kids talking..

kid #1: ayos ah! nagpapakalalaki ka na!
kid #2: oo! t*ng i*a mo!
kid #1:
kesh:

and a neighbor greeted another neighbor belated happy birthday..

neighbor #1: jaime, belated!
neighbor #2: gag* tapos na..
neighbor #1: kaya nga belated eh..
neighbor #2: t*ng i*a mo.
kesh: WTF!

haha
buti nalang lumaki kaming hindi ginagawang comma ang mura..
tho i say things such as WTF (what the fact) and shayt and xet..
mabuti paring conservative tayo verbally hindi ba?

and yes..
i can’t end the post without saying tenkyo0o~ to all my friends who gave and pledged bears to me..

sana marami pa magbigay sakin..

at muli..
shalamat!

*sings*
didn’t know how lost i was until i found you..

bakit nga ba lagi nalang ako napipili maging member ng committee?
hindi ba nila alam na ayaw ko ng ganung stuff?

anyway..
in news..
yesterday me and me family watched teh manny fight..
walang kwentang pldt watchpad..
forever buffering..
good thing i found a streaming site..
ok na sana kaso nung round 10 nagsimulang mag-lag..
pati yung nakikinood na nangungupahan samin naiirita..

kelangang manaka-nakang irerefresh..
at bago mabuffer ang round 12..
w00t!
i read tintin bersola’s tweet..

“referee stops d fight! Manny WINS!”

and momma was like
at yun na nga..
cotto was just in surviving mode at around round 10?
and after the fight..
we always wait for quotable manny..
and this was his:

“You know sometimes you also have to be smart in the ring. I let Cotto hit me because I wanted to test his power. I was actually pretending it didn’t hurt but it really hurt, you know.”

it’s like vitwater you know?
hahaha
such a funny guy!
he’s really a good boxer no?

and yesterday also was my last day of 15-hour actual driving lesson..
mejo B.I. yung trainer ko..
sabi nya magpractice daw ako after ng learning..
sabi ko wala ako kasamang me licensya..
sabi nya mas ok kung magisa ka lang..
kaya pag-uwi..
niyaya ko pamangkin ko at si rodababes..
nagdrive ako at pumunta kami sa moa..

hindi naman kami nahuli..
hindi rin naman kami nabangga..
i was happy to realize..
marunong na ko magpark..

i’m so proud of myself!
hahaha

in other news..
i’ve been updating my twitter account for like every 10 seconds..
for my friends who have twitter..
ano pa nga ba?
follow meh!

nax!
napapadalas ang pagblog!

three things that made me smile today:

1. crush said “blooming ka ngayon..”
   i said “kiss me..  “
   [joke lang.. that was just in my head.. ]
2. i caught kuya guard smiling alone while listening to the song “t-shirt” by shontelle..
   i wonder if he imagines himself singing the song..
   *kesh starts to imagine..*
   *kuya sings like no one is around* “with nothing but you t-shirt on..”
   *magkakatinginan kami*
   
   *awkward silence*
   
3. and this photo!



cute izn’t?

 

and i finally found my matipunong magsasaka!
in onion form!
haha

it’s such a shame i can’t understand chanis!
*sings* kung nagaral lamang ako noon..
ay..
kung hindi ko pa nababanggit..
or i think nabanggit ko na..
pero babanggitin ko uli kasi nabanggit ko na na babanggitin ko sya..
nag-aral ako sa chinese school before..
may chanis name pa nga ako..
“ma-bi-hwa”.. something..
sabi ng principal namin ang meaning daw nun..
maganda.. mabait.. matalino..
yeah..

hahaha
hindi ko man lang nagamit natutunan ko..
ni wala ako maalalang salita!

according to bits..
ang law daw na namention ko last time..
is kulang..
dapat daw bago maabswelto yung nakapatay ng nangangaliwang spouse..
may conditions..
pag lalaki yung nangaliwa..
dapat mahuli ng babae na nangangaliwa si lalake sa bahay mismo nila..
(what the fact! lokohan!)
pero pag babae yung nangaliwa..
kahit magkaholding hands lang..
pwede na patayin..
hahaha

life is so unfair in so many levels!
but anyway..
the bottomline is..
wag magpapahuli kahit saan..

i’m tired!
i’m tired!
i’m tired!
i’m tired!

but i promised myself i’ll blog tonight..
so uunahin ko to bago ang aking mga labahin..

last night while trying to get by the traffic..
my friend mentioned that there’s already a law or something..
(ano ba tawag sa ganun? *scratches head* wala akong alam sa history haha)
na aabswelto sa isang husband or wife if in the event..
na mapatay nya ang asawa nya..
habang nahuli nyang nasa akto ng pangangaliwa..
ala temporary insanity.. (marami tayo nyan)
how true?
much like the twinkie defense? harvey milk?
i think it can be good in a sense na matatakot mangaliwa yung mga may asawa..
pero it can be bad too kasi it tolerates murder..
[wanna die?]
and i think one of the pillars of marriage is trust..
[kesh clings to the imaginary man of her life]
and not just .. you know.. fear..
well..
we all have opinions..
and beliefs..
so yeah..
magkanya-kanya nalang tayo..
*sings* mechu on a springtime day.. [sad to belong mode on]

may ikukwento pa sana ako kaso magtu-12 na..
bukas nalang after ko maglaba..
hahaha
goodnight world..
goodnight _____!

and bang bang i’m in love!

i guess it’s not that healthy reading a crush’s blog..
entry by entry..
word by word..
emotion by emotion..
little by little..
coz i end up liking him more and more..
haha
gahk~!
i read too much!
i imagine too much!

tho it wouldn’t hurt having the future man of my life..
fall for me while reading my blog entries..
wahahaha
makatulog na nga!

but before that..
let me leave you with an onion poem..

Pink petals passing　桃色の花びらが舞う
Scents above so high　香りが高まる
Painted porcelain perfection　完璧な着色で
Blossoms caress the sky　　花の群れが空を包む

Swaying silent shroud　ゆれる静けさに包まれ
Suitors strolling by　お互いがすれ違う
Pink petals passing　桃色の花びらが舞う
Lover’s gentle sigh　恋人たちのやさしい吐息

Pastel hues falling　淡い色が落ちる
Slow fluttering grace　ゆっくり羽ばたく優美
Pink petals passing　桃色の花びらが舞う
Lining streams in lace　レースが裏で流れる

Pink petals passing　桃色の花びらが舞う
Smoothest transit by　なめらかさが横切る
Soft essence floating　柔らかな香りが浮かぶ
In most subtle lullaby　精細な子守唄で

let’s fall in love again..

morning started with my morning fail..
*in lola techie tone*
bat ba kasi nauso yang tag tag na yan!
but it’s a reality..
it’s a comfort to see..
an ex looks far less gorgeous than the way he did..
and even tho 100x na syang suggested friend..
100 million common friends..
i refused to add him..
kasi..
kasi mapride ako..
meron pa pala ko nun..
hahaha
i guess pagdating sa lalaki..
mapride ako..

now i disassociate my blog from my fb site..
at pati picasa..
nang matapos na..
ayoko nadadawit dawit sa mga issue nila..

anyhoo..
how’s the life outside my life?
i guess i was too busy these days..
or rather i kept myself too busy these days..
you know?
vitwater?
hehe
i started my first driving lesson last.. last sunday..

mas tarantahin pa sakin yung nagturo sakin!
he was like..
“yung clutch mo! ibrake mo! ibrake mo!”
and i was like..
“kuya binreak mo!!!”
in the end..
after 3 hours of learning..
parang nasuka ko sa ginawa ko..
hahaha
was fun tho!
marunong na ko magpaandar..
marunong narin ako magbangga..
konting practice pa..
12 learning hours to go..
weee~

sana pumasa ako sa driver’s license exam..
(mahiya naman ako kung hindi no? haha)
will be taking it this november 20..
yeah..
lakasan lang ng loob..
fighto~oh!

in other news..
i watched This Is It a while ago..
tinatamad ako gumawa pa ng movie review..
anyway..
just like after seeing a mariah carey concert makes you feel like singing..
watching michael jackson concert just makes you feel like dancing..
i have billie jean intro at the back of my mind habang niraramdam ang alikabok ng jeepney pauwi..
iba talaga talent sa hilig..
there are like 9 million musicians out there who plays music even without musical talent..
pero once you encounter someone who really has the talent..
it’s just not the same..
like meeting mariah carey.. (ehem)
michael jackson..
the beatles..
and local musicians like the eraserheads..
and rico blanco..
i bet working with perfectionist is just awesome..
and stressful too~
hearing someone with such raw music talent makes me feel small and insignificant..
hahaha
as if i’m not really!

and while watching this is it..
i had BK’s mocha joe..

last month ko lang sya natuklasan..
at ang weird kasi sa BK 2nd floor glorietta pwedeng upgrade to mocha joe frost yung drink ng meal..
pero sa 3rd floor ndi..
kala ko ba “no mocking of orders? no odd order ever?”
ridiculous!
haha

and out of random ridiculous yet almost brilliant thought..
i’m thinking of naming my next band “Band..Duh!”
our debut album “All..Bum”
and our debut single “Can’t Ah”
almost brilliant, isn’t?

mama: mababa over mo!
kesh: ha?
mama: mababa over mo!
kesh: ha? anong over?
mama: parang 110 over 60! mababa over mo! anemic ka!
kesh: ahhh..

ayan ang eksena namin ni mama nung isang linggo ng gabi sa harap ng kandila..
habang nagaantay ng kuryente at pagkatapos kong ikwento sa kanya..
na muntik na ko himatayin sa daan habang naglalakad..
as expected of mama..
casual lang..

mama: kumain ka ng itlog! ako araw-araw kumakain ng isang itlog.
kesh: itlo0og???

manila! manila! manila!
last week lumubog sa baha ang manila because of Ondoy..
first time na muntik na pasukin ng baha bahay namin..
good thing papa was really good..
engineer by nature..
tinaasan nya ang harap ng bahay before..
kaya hindi kami pinasok ng baha..

God is good..
and tho ilang araw din kaming nagdinner by candle light..
okay lang kasi mas marami pang mas malala ang nangyari..
as in marami..
anyway..
sabi ni daddy..
share your blessings!

last friday..
bilang kakaaalis lang ni Ondoy..
at pagkatapos binalita ng PAG-ASA na darating naman bilang super typhoon si Pepeng..
lahat na kami nataranta!
si ate..
si ate..
at isa ko pang ate..
kaya ang ending..
umuwi ako ng alas-sinko..
dumiretso ako sa landmark..
at nagpanic buying ako!

demet!
first time ko mag-grocery ng halos limang libo..
i mean using my own $$$!
tsk..
ano nga ba pinagbibibili ko..
de lata..
de lata..
at maraming marami pang de lata..
at noodles in case wala na kami makain..
pag-uwi..
bungad ni mama..
NAGPANIC BUYING KA?

this would be the time na unti-unti nagsisink-in sakin na wala na si papa..
tho..
stil..
not totally..
mukha kong tanga sa daan kaganina habang naglalakad at umiiyak..
namimiss ko sya..
ang pinakamalalang miss ay ang miss na kahit kailan..
hindi na talaga mapupunan..

i wish..
sana..
i won’t encounter anymore family deaths for the rest of my life..
and i wish my loved ones and friends won’t experience same hurt as i did..
kaya palagi ko sinasabi..
show them your love..
kasi ayoko mangyari sa kanila nangyari sakin..
and yet..
as always..
not all of them will listen..
hehe

gusto ko nang tapusin ang post..
pero gusto ko ikwento yung nangyari sakin nung isang linggo..
muntik na ko himatayin..
warning: pang babae lang

may pagdalo kami ng araw na yun..
sakto..
first day of period..
at dahil sa nagmamadali ako baka ma-late..
(so new!)
naligo ako ng hindi nagiinit ng tubig..
nakagayak ako at nakarating ng pulong..
(at ye! hindi ako late!)

walang masakit kundi ang aking puson..
lumabas ako para bumili ng fajibar.. coke.. at mefenamic acid..
habang naglalakad ako pabalik..
bigla akong parang nagwhiteout!

hindi blackout kasi white yung paningin ko..
pinagpatuloy ko paglakad ko pero parang unti-unting hindi ko na nararamdaman ang akin faa!
kala ko magfaint ako..
naghanap ako sa paligid kung may malapit na matipunong lalaki..
wala!
meron lang matandang babaeng nagwawalis..
aanhin ko sya?
hehehe
mabuti nalang may upuan sa may tindahan ng bigas samay camba..
umupo ako at pinagtinginan ng tao..
i was like “nastarstruck kaya sila sakin?”
tinignan ko sila sa mata..
mukhang hindi naman..
after few minutes na mukhang kaya ko nang maglakad pabalik..
naglakad ako at dire diretsong humiga sa kama sa baba..
kahit na walang cover at mukhang giant alikabok na sya.. carrybells lang..
at doon..
ako’y pinagpawisan ng malamig..
para ko naligo uli..
at hindi makabangon..
me mga batang naglalaro sa baba..
tinawag ko yung isa..

kesh: kilala mo si keith?
bata: sino un?
kesh: kilala mo si toto?
bata: opo
kesh: pakitawag..

nalipasan na ko ng panahon..
hindi parin dumadating si toto..
tumayo na ko at hooray!
andun yung pamangkin kong isa..
pinakuha ko gamit ko..
umuwi ako agad..
at natulog nang mahaba..
tandaan..

“dahil walang masamang pakiramdam..
ang hindi nadadaan sa mahabang tulugan..”

anyhoo..
today we celebrate my blog’s 7000th views!!!

muli..
salamat sa mga tumatangkilik..
mga nagbabasa..
kahit na madalas hindi ko na to nauupdate..
kahit dito lang..
stay with me..

three things that made me smile today:

1. bits told me na ang bango ng shampoo nya.. i asked her which shampoo and color she used.. sabi nya rejoice na green.. pagdating ko sa supermarket.. lahat ng rejoice kulay green!
2. sa supermarket padin.. naglalakad ako at tumitingin ng ajax na powder.. nabangga ko yung cart nung babae.. sabi ko “ay sorry”.. sumagot sya *in a sarcastic tone* “sooorry?” naisip ko.. ibabad ko kaya sa zonrox dila nya? XD
3. ang love story ni mama at ni papa:

isang araw december ng 1963.. nagdate sila mama at papa.. kinahapunan..
mama: “tara doy uwi na tayo..  “
papa: “ay di na tayo uuwi.. tinanan na kita.. “
mama: “ano??? tinanan mo na ako??? “
papa: “oo.. “
mama: “ok!”

hahaha pero me pahabol.. ayaw daw ni mama na me mangyari sa kanila hanggat hindi pa sila kasal.. THAT’S MY MOM Y’ALL! hahaha at few days after.. nagpakasal sila. and they lived happily ever after.. well.. almost. hehe

on the first part..
life was too fast..
i remember when i was in first year college..
i wished sana third year na ko..
and then nung third year i wished fifth year na ko..
and with almost like a blink of an eye..
i realized i was working already..
life before was like a joke..
or like a game..
nothing was taken too seriously..
you live day by day as if nothing’s gonna change..
as if everything’s gonna be okay as long as you live by the way you should live..
the last scenes of this part was me chatting with my sister..
nag-aalala sya kay papa..
susunduin daw nila sa cavite..
i thought of coming along..
pero naisip ko sa bahay nalang antayin si papa..

and then the second part was the night that changed my life..
we were waiting for papa to arrive..
it was a usual night..
i go home from work..
go online..
watch anything..
and wait till i feel sleepy..
i can’t remember the exact time..
when my sister called me..
asa ICU si papa..
i was worried..
i got nervous..
but not too worried..
or too nervous..
tho papa has never been in ICU..
i didn’t thought it was too serious..
ano nga ba ang ICU?
i can’t even imagine how it looks like..
pupunta dapat kami ni keith around 9pm..
pero ayaw nila ate kasi delikado daw..
and they also hinted na baka iuwi daw si papa sa manila..
at ilipat ng hospital..
still..
i wasn’t very worried..
around 11pm..
ate called and told me papa wasn’t stable enough to be transferred..
then we went to cavite..
papa’s older sister insisted to go inside the ICU..
i sneaked a little..
saw him..
and told ate..
“parang ok ok naman na kulay nya..”
coz it was papa’s usual color..
he was hardly breathing..
pero knowing papa..
he’s very strong and i believed he can pull anything through..
even that..
we waited for test results..
walang kwenta yung facilities ng hospital..
wala silang pantest so yung iba dinala pa nila ate sa la salle dasma para matest..
then after some time..
there was nothing left to do but to wait..
pray..
and plan what to do next..
umuwi sila mama so they can attend to papa the next morning..
me.. ate.. her husband and keith were left at the hospital..
it was torture..
ang alam ko kasi kapag nagbeebeep yung machine na nakakabit kay papa..
nawawalan sya ng heartbeat..
and parang every 2 minutes nagbee beep sya..
at twing nagbee beep yun..
all i did was to pray..
i was online the whole night talking to my sister..
updating her..
even sa beep ng machines na nakakabit kay papa..
i told her everything..
around 7am ate and her husband left to go home so they can attend to papa the next evening..
me and keith were left..
it was around 8am na pwede bumisita ng ICU..
i went inside..
saw him in a very weak heartbreaking state..
i wasn’t sure if papa was asleep..
so i asked the nurse..
then she shouted “tay!”
parang nagulat si papa..
i thought he was resting so di ko na ginising..
all i did was hold his hands..
and pray silently..
then i went outside as fast as i could para makaiyak..
i meant to stay longer pero i’ve never seen him so fragile..
it didn’t occur to me that he could possibly die until that moment..
and the thought of losing him is something very unimaginable..
and just after for few hours..
the doctor said they gave papa the last medication..
if di pa daw bumalik sa normal yung heartbeat ni papa..
wala na daw talaga..
i’ve never pleaded god more than i did that moment..
i actually couldn’t plead more..
i was willing to trade my life..
naisip ko nga kung kelangan ng heart transplant ni papa..
i’m willing to give mine..
kaso yeah i know..
baka saksakin ako ni mama pag sinabi ko yun..
XD
i’ve never felt so powerless..
and at that moment..
there was really no one to turn to but god..
there was nothing to expect but divine intervention..
no one to depend on but Him..
and up to the last second..
i expected a miracle would happen..
i was crying inside another room when they called mama and broke the news..
mama went out of the ICU crying..
hindi pa man nya sinasabi..
alam ko na..
i’ve never seen her so hurt..
reality bites..
truth hurts..
papa died at 2:35pm..
all i can do for mama was to hug her..
i can’t fight the hurt.. the fear away..
or even the guilt she might be feeling kasi hinayaan nya umalis si papa..
i went inside the ICU..
andun parin yung body ni papa..
all the guilt can eat me alive..
pero there’s no room for it..
i have to be strong..
we have to be strong..
isipin ko mang sana ganito..
sana ganun..
pero hindi naman ganun yung nangyari..
hindi naman ganun ang ginawa ko..
i have to face the reality..
feel it slap the truth on my face..
and live by it..
coz there’s really no other way but to deal with it..

and just few hours ago..
nilibing namin si papa..
i feel incomplete..
and a big part of me has died along with him..
mamimiss ko yung bigla syang kakatok sa kwarto ko me dala dalang gulaman..
or shake..
or burger..
yung gigisingin nya ko ng maaga kasi me breakfast ako na mais..
yung papasok sya ng bahay na pagod na pagod pero nakangiti na me pasalubong na siopao para sakin..
yung uuwi kami ng magkaholding hands..
yung ngisi nya sa twing pinapagalitan ko mga pamangkin ko..
yung sermon nya sa twing late ako..
yung sita nya pag namamayat ako..
ang dami daming parte pa ng buhay ko na gusto ko andun sya..
pero wala na naman na ako magagawa kasi wala na sya..

now all the hurt i felt before feels ridiculous..
all the heartaches na feeling mo end of the world na..
or simple fight with friends na parang big deal na..
it’s all like a big stupid joke..

siguro ngayon..
hindi ko pa mafeel yung gravity ng nangyari..
and the whole family is here..
i don’t know what to expect the day na umalis na uli sila..
at bumalik kami sa kanya kanyang buhay..
i wish mama would agree to visit davao for the meantime..
it’s hurtful for us na mawala si papa..
hindi ko maimagine kung panong mas lalo pa sa kanya..
i pray for her more than to anybody else in the family..
i wish for her peace more than to anybody..

“The true God is for us a God of saving acts; And to Jehovah the Sovereign Lord belong the ways out from death.”
- Psalm 68:20

when the world feels like crumbling.. only He can give me the strength i’m needing..

” Him who is forgiving all your error, Who is healing all your maladies”
- Psalms 103:3