kesh decides to die


on 28.06.2009

celebrate nature

bakit nagdoo-drool si onion-kun?

as i read through my 5 year old sent items..
narealize ko..
ang sama ko pala dati..
Crying Onion
at ibang iba ako magsalita..
but why?
whenever i look back..
i don’t feel much have changed about me..
[except my hotness multiplied gazzilion times? nope.]
pero as i read through my sent mails..
the way i said the words..
it felt like i’m reading words of another person..
nagbago rin pala ako..
did i change for the better?
i hope i did.

june 15 marked the day i decided that i’ve diagnosed myself with diabetes..
ang labo!
now frequent stabbing chest pains make sense..
kaya rin pala nanginginig ako at pinagpapawisan ng malamig pag gutom..
Onion XD
hypoglycaema na pala yun..
i see..
related din kaya ang madalas kong pababangugnot o bad spirit lang yon?
casual lang..
these past few weeks was when all of the symptoms popped up..
but i refused to accept..
dati kasi pa isa isa lang..
but yes..
we can’t ignore everything..
so after a sudden drop of weight..
even after eating like i’ll never eat again tomorrow..
i’ve decided to take a blood sugar test..
as expected of me.
i failed!
on the other note..
maybe i should have my own version of 1 Litre of Tears..
akin siguro 1 Litre of Beer..
Panda Onion
or 1 Litre of Sweets?

“felt another disturbing pain in my chest while programming..
am i dying okaasan?
this diabetes..
why did it choose me?
ay wala pala syang choice!”

— from 1 Litre of Beer

Onion XD
kasi halos lahat daw ng bunso ng mom na me diabetes..
meron din!
nakakaiyak sya!
nararamdaman ko!
and nope.
i refuse to see a doctor.

anyway, this one true story..
really touched me..
let me quote it..

Colby Curtin, a 10-year-old girl suffering from terminal vascular cancer, told her mom that she wanted to live to see Pixar’s Up.
But before she could visit the theater, her condition became too unstable for her to be moved.
Colby’s family called Pixar, guessed a name of an employee to break through the automated operator and explained the situation to the first person they reached.
A Pixar employee flew out immediately with a DVD, toys and posters in hand.
From the OC Register: Colby couldn’t see the screen because the pain kept her eyes closed so her mother gave her a play-by-play of the film. “Do you think you can hang on?” Colby’s mother said. “I’m ready (to die), but I’m going to wait for the movie,” the girl replied.
At the end of the film, the mother asked if her daughter enjoyed the movie and Colby nodded yes, Lisa Curtin said.
Colby died later that evening, hopefully fulfilled in at least some small way.

i was like “awwww” and huhuhu after reading it..
ang arte!

ako’y napapagod na maging tech support ng mga tao..
i don’t mind helping..
coz helping is a happy word..
pero me mga taong hindi man lang maibigay ang mga salitang “thank you” pagkatapos mo tulungan..
at me mga tao ring abusado humingi ng tulong na halos lahat ng bagay na ginagawa..
at me mga tao ring pag pumalpak yung tulong mo..
sayo pa galit..
bakit? bakit? bakit?
bakit nilalang ang mga taong ganyan?
kaya kayo..
have the courtesy to say thank you..
etong pamangkin ko isa pang pasaway..
nagabot ng isang grade 6 whole paper..
list ng kanta..
idownload ko daw sya..
me note pa sa dulo..
“Plx delete all OPM Music in my songs”
makakatikim ka.

this would be my last post for june..
ayoko ng june..


One response to “diagnosed.

  1. erick1355 says:

    naku d k na mkpgasawa.. bwal kn sa sweets.. corny! lol.. woi isa ba ko sa mga abuso.. hehehe! thank you!

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